￼We lost our unborn triplets & our home. My fiance left me & my three daughters in a motel on Thanksgiving. My youngest daughter had to miss her 4th birthday. And I was informed my mother was dying of stage 4 lung cancer with mets to brain, breast, & liver…ALL of this happened within a two week period. My whole world was crushed in the blink of an eye. I’m a nurse & have supported my family for eight years.
My fiance, and father of my youngest two children, finally found stable work. He told me I could relax & be a stay at home mom. Finally I could enjoy my kids & not work 12 hour shifts anymore! Finally I didn’t have to work overtime to make ends meet! Finally I could enjoy the holidays with my family instead of work myself to death….this did not happen. I found out in November I was pregnant with triplets and our family of five was about to grow in a big, BIG way!!! Sadly at eleven weeks pregnant I lost all three babies. I still don’t know how to cope with this. My middle daughter who is 4 constantly asks me, “Mommy do you think God will give our babies back for Christmas?”.
I’m sure this caused a lot of the downfall of my relationship with my children’s father but we did have problems in the relationship earlier in the year. Shortly after, we could not afford rent, & our family was evicted. We had income because my fiance had finally indeed found a way to support us, but the complications from miscarriage along with other family issues caused a loss of income temporarily and we lost our home. Now in a motel, the fighting became worse. Stress from bills, wondering where we would live, how we would give our youngest a birthday party (never happened), & how we would give our family Christmas, car breaking down, still drained from losing my babies, children stir crazy from being trapped in a motel all day….the tension and arguing steadily continued to build. No family or friends to really turn to for help.
The family we did have that would help also had financial problems and just couldn’t help or there were some family members that we just hadn’t spoke to in so long…including my mom, who I needed more than ever at this point in my life, that I hadn’t spoke to in over a year. The night before Thanksgiving, my fiance & father off my children, left us. So now I’m in a motel, no family or friends, father of my children gone, no money or job…no hope. Then I find out my mom is dying. I never even knew she was sick. Dying of stage 4 lung cancer with mets to brain, breast, and liver. Not only have I lost my fiance & home but now my mother who I really need more than ever now, has a prognosis of 3 months without chemo & 6 to 12 months with chemo and radiation. Living day to day in a motel is hard and back breaking. Add kids and sick loved ones & a break up and it’s bound to end in tears ..multiple times a day. My kids ask me will they have a Christmas, and I really don’t know if they will.
It’s a heart breaking feeling. I can’t afford to think about presents because I have to figure out money for a room for the night & food for the day everyday. When we were evicted, my fiance promised our babies that with his new job, he would give us a home for Christmas.
Now it looks like I will be breaking that promise. I got a message today that my mother is back in the hospital due to breathing complications while receiving radiation & too much fluids on her lungs. All I want for Christmas is my Mom, who I owe a mother’s day and a birthday to, and my children to have a bright and happy Christmas. I know they worry deep down if they will have any kind of Christmas when they look at our 6 inch tree in our little motel that doesn’t have one present underneath it yet.
I don’t want to let them down again. They have been thru so much & deserve some happiness after all this heartbreak. Please help me put a smile on my mother’s & children’s faces for Christmas. You would take so much pain and heartbreak from me and I would be so grateful for your help. God bless you!! And Merry Christmas!